rapunzel/refugees/slavic by Linda Scheller

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war, trauma, sexual assault

[280 words]

                                                                          I.
my mother said           they took my son          a blue-eyed blonde         
               he must go          someone said that            he was young enough          
                             she begged my father             he needed            to be given away        
             to save the child’s life            a shot           and so they took him           
                                            by stealth           and i never saw him again


    
                                                                        II.
caught          they put me in a cell         i was forced to work        
           in retribution           my children were led away           for the komandant           
                       my fate sealed         the agent rapes me            he said              
    i was raised in a cottage crawling with toads        and if i scream          
             he likes hurting me         steam swirls          worse follows            
                                 billows rise and          where have they gone   
                                             heaven help me        disappear

      

                                                                      III.
when the moon began to influence my body           i tried to escape      
       relocated against my will         locked in a doorless tower         
                    by the river         i know nothing of my family’s fate
        like a leaf swept away          my daughter couldn’t swim         
                        and I fear the worst             the birds               my god
    				                       regard me with pity



                                                                      IV.
i sit near the window and         i thought we’d get across         the border meant safety but
                               listen           we were caught           on the road        
                roosters crow            	they sent us back            my son was conscripted          
                             at night an owl calls          they killed him         shot for refusing to fight        
               cold stars glitter          at point blank range        i weep        
                                              and sometimes i dream        
                                                                                              my daughters dare not go out          
                                                                                                                                              shells rain down    
two children play            they’re hungry          the wounded are everywhere
                               a man without eyes stumbles forth         
                                                               we have no food           and we have lost            
                                              the braid          
                                                                         oh my son                 	all hope           
                                                            falls writhing to the ground  

Linda Scheller is a retired educator and the author of two books of poetry, Fierce Light (FutureCycle Press, 2017) and Wind & Children (Main Street Rag, 2022). Her poetry, plays, and book reviews appear in numerous publications including Hawai’i Pacific Review, Plays, Colorado Review, and Wisconsin Review. She serves as vice president of Modesto-Stanislaus Poetry Center and programs for KCBP Community Radio. Her website is lindascheller.com.

“rapunzel/refugees/slavic” was previously published in Stanislaus Connections, in October 2019.

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